As the band starts to play and the spotlight shines brightly, the fear grips me tightly.
For years, stage fright made each performance a battle against my doubts and insecurities.
These panic attacks were more than just sweaty palms and racing heartbeats. It was a deep-rooted belief that I was an imposter, destined to be exposed for the fraud I believed myself to be. But through the insecurities, I found a sliver of light that guided me towards a path that God delights in me, even in my weaknesses and imperfections (Zephaniah 3:17).
With the help of a therapist, I began to unravel the tangled web of the cause of my fears. I realized that my desire was rooted in my deep feelings of never feeling as if I was good enough or too much. This perspective seeped into my soul, shaping my self-preception without even realizing it.
But within me, there were glimmers, tiny sparks of joy in leading worship songs that refused to be extinguished. Glimmers were those moments that brought a smile to my face, reminding me of the incredible presence of God’s love and compassion. I don’t have to always get it right or seek affirmation from outside sources, but I can embrace my God-given value. They were emotional nourishments, filling my heart with gratitude and joy in the moment to counter my fears.
On the other hand, Triggers were external events that bring about strong emotional reactions within me. Sometimes, they ignited anger, fear, or sadness. However, I discovered that triggers could be transformed into beautiful glimmers. They could become catalysts for growth.
Emotions are those threads that weave the tapestry of our lives and hold immense power.
Sometimes, they act as triggers, setting off a chain reaction within us. But other times, they become glimmers, filling our hearts with joy and contentment. We are responsible for recognizing and managing these emotions, transforming triggers into beautiful glimmers.
As the new year unfolds, I release myself from enormous expectations. Instead, I embark on a journey of curiosity, exploring what it truly means to live authentically well. I reflect upon my current habits, identifying the ones that serve me and those that hold me back. In this month’s blog, I share the five key ways to transform triggers into beautiful glimmers.
“God wants to partner with you in the deep transformation of your heart. It will not be quick, but it will be better than you’ve imagined.” -Dr. Charity Byers, author The Unhindered Life
I pray that this year be a year of growth, empowerment, and transcending the boundaries that have held us back. The spotlight awaits, my friends. It’s time for us to shine like never before.🦋
1. Reflect on a time when you felt like an imposter. What self-limiting beliefs or negative words have influenced your perception of yourself? How can you challenge and overcome them?
2. What are some glimmers in your life? Think of moments or experiences that bring you joy and contentment. How can you intentionally cultivate more of these in your daily life?
